ad·​ver·​sar·​ia | \ ˌad-vər-ˈsa-rē-ə  \

Definition of adversaria

1 : commentaries or notes (as on a text or document)

2 : a miscellaneous collection of notes, remarks, or selections : COMMONPLACE BOOK

The very act of recording your actions and impressions is itself powerfully mnemonic, fixing the moment more durably in your memory so that it’s easier to recall in future, even if you never consult your notes.

The genius of the blog was not in the note-taking, it was in the publishing. The act of making your log-file public requires a rigor that keeping personal notes does not. Writing for a notional audience — particularly an audience of strangers — demands a comprehensive account that I rarely muster when I’m taking notes for myself. I am much better at kidding myself my ability to interpret my notes at a later date than I am at convincing myself that anyone else will be able to make heads or tails of them.

Cory Doctorow, The Memex Method.

Tuesday, November 30 2021

Quote of the Day

You keep asking why your work is not enough, and I don’t know how to answer that, because it is enough to exist in the world and marvel at it. You don’t need to justify that, or earn it. You are allowed to just live.

― Becky Chambers, A Psalm for the Wild-Built

The end of NaNoWriMo

And I got less blog posts done than any time since I started this blog. Is that kind of funny?

Somehow all of November seemed to be time spent planning for the Christmas holiday season. I’m pretty exhausted from all the prep, honestly, but we are closing in on the end. Some ornaments to buy, cards, last gifts ordered, last travel plans to settle. Maybe by the end of the week I’ll be lucky enough to have everything but the cards filled out.

But while I wasn’t scheming, more novel prep work happened. Huge swaths of worldbuilding was done, and the plot seems pretty general right now but what I have was enough to figure out the genre. Now I need to work on more plot specifics, adding in genre scenes and conventions as I go.

I stopped working on it entirely the week before Thanksgiving, as there was too much real life stuff to do amidst some weird health issues (that turned out to be me getting better and my body rejecting the drugs and supplements I’ve been using to limp through life for the past couple years).

It’s time to start working on it again, and it feels weird getting back into it. It’s starting to feel a little scary real, and I’m finding it hard to sit down and focus. Even working step by step like I am, I still feel like I’m not smart enough to pull off what I want this story to be.

Oh well! Too bad for me. Time to work anyway.

But the links

I’ve had so many links build up in the intervening weeks, most I haven’t had time to read. So here there are in no particular order to get them out of my personal space:

Revisiting Lewis & Clark’s epic journey through an Indigenous lens

America Needs a New Scientific Revolution

Embrace Complexity Through Behavioral Planning

Of hawks and hope: In a climate collapse, a wildlife biologist turns from sadness to action.

The Thick Of It with Jo Gale: Existing in Shades of Grey

‘We Are Here’: Debates Over Teaching History Exclude Native People, Rhode Island Indigenous Parents Say

How The U.S. Legal System Ignores Tribal Law: Q&A With Elizabeth Reese

Artist Hand-Carves Miniature ‘Game of Thrones’ Sculptures on the Tips of Pencils

An Indigenous chef is putting her heritage on the menu with landmark restaurant

The Confident Creative Club

From Amazon to Zoom: What Happens in an Internet Minute In 2021?

Everything about this tweet

Monday, November 8 2021

Quote of the Day

To assert by his talent, the rights of any citizen in any society: the right to work, to be maintained while working, and to share the product with all who wanted it. The rights of an Odonian and of a human being.

Ursula K. LeGuin, The Dispossessed

Where did I go

All last week I physically felt worse and worse and worse until on Friday I finally figured out I might be having a reaction to a medication I’ve been on since spring.

Turns out, I was right. It’s kind of a good thing; I was reacting to it because I don’t need it any more. My body has resumed making enough of what the medication is because I’m eating in a way that supports it. Hey! What a great concept.

So I am feeling infinitely better and am ready to jump back in.

What am I doing

That’s what I was asking myself for all of this morning. I sat down to work after a week of being all over the place and was more than a little lost.

So after lunch I sat down determinedly and put together a process flow for myself using Notion. Now every morning I will sit down to a daily checklist that will lead me through setting up my work for the day and track it effectively so I don’t forget where I am or what I am supposed to do next. It worked extra great and I’m actually pretty happy with what I managed to get done in the 2.5 hours I had left of the day.

I know creatively is supposed to be spontaneous and all, but if I don’t have any idea what I am supposed to be spontaneous about, it doesn’t go well at all.

As it turns out, I’ve figured a huge chunk of my worldbuilding, which is literally the first time in my writing life I’ve been able to say that. As a recovering pantser, this sort of thing has never happened. I’m really loving how figuring this out is putting up a lot of guiderails as to what this story can even be about. I don’t have to try to narrow down my plot from all the possibilities in the universe; only the plausible ones that could happen in the world I’ve built.

Which means, after a few housekeeping tasks of getting the physical information into digital reference notes, I get to move on to plotting.

My worldbuilding took about a month. That’s way too long for a short story, but I’ve decided to make it up to myself by committing to write a number of stories in this place, because it’s already super interesting to explore and I bet I can think of lots of characters to write about in it.

Some interesting links

I’m not doing a bunch of research these days outside what I need for my story (and my continued health). So here’s some interesting links I stumbled over, with little commentary:

Beyond Dark Academia: The Real Horror in Magic School Is Systemic Inequality I doubt I’m going to enjoy reading this, but I’m sure I should

The Ones Who Can’t Walk Away: Another Perspective on Omelas I have enough problems with this story, I can’t wait to get other perspectives on it

What Bhutan got right about happiness – and what other countries can learn This can’t be bad

9 cities that could be underwater by 2030 It’s getting grim

AI Generates Hypotheses Human Scientists Have Not Thought Of Well, yeah, that’s why I want to use it in my story!

Monday, November 1 2021

Quote of the Day

He had thought to bargain with them, a very naive anarchist’s notion. The individual cannot bargain with the State. The State recognizes no coinage but power: and it issues the coins itself.

Ursula K. LeGuin, The Dispossessed

NaNoWriMo time

Alas, I did not finish my worldbuilding in time to write during NaNo. I’m just going to have to aim to have my worldbuilding done by the end of NaNo!

But one of my favorite authors to follow on YouTube is vlogging her NaNo experience all month: Heart Breathings (Sarra Cannon). Her Nano blogs are super fun to watch.

Crystal Moon Power!

I have a huge soft spot for Sailor Moon, and this weekend I watched Sailor Moon Eternal. This was the first time I saw the attack: Starlight Honeymoon Therapy Kiss, and I love everything about it!

Also I found these pins / stickers and I need all of them, possibly!

To good friends and love!

Some quick links

Found these over the weekend:

Net zero is not enough – we need to build a nature-positive future I need to work faster to get my story out…it’s so timely!!!!

Against longtermism: It started as a fringe philosophical theory about humanity’s future. It’s now richly funded and increasingly dangerous Somebody needs to take these jokers and humanely relocate them to some island they can ruin to their heart’s content–Capitalism Island–and let the rest of us figure out how to clean up their fucking nightmare mess.

The Uselessness of Useful Knowledge I’m writing about an AI, this might be helpful.

Wednesday, October 27 2021

Quote of the Day

People discriminated very carefully then between administering things and governing people. They did it so well that we forgot that the will to dominance is as central in human beings as the impulse to mutual aid is, and has to be trained in each individual, in each new generation.

Ursula K. LeGuin, The Dispossessed

Secret night writing

I’ve always loved writing at night after my hubby has gone to bed. The house will be dark and quiet, and it feels like I can write anything because no one will see. As if every single person in the world can see my writing during the day and is quietly judging it! It’s a silly hang up, but I still feel freer to write down anything and everything for a new story in secret.

I’ve taken ~45 mins the last two night to write little fragments of the story I am working on. I don’t know if I will even use them for anything, but the sheer creative joy of just building the ethereal sandcastle that a story is feels lovely. It’s hard, because I keep running into things that I haven’t figured out yet, but it does make me want to figure them out even more!

I knew my story would begin with a short travel from the main character’s home to the main setting, and I decided my MC lives in Minnesota. I assumed MN would have flooding in the climate change of our future, and just wrote off that idea. I checked The Facts today, and I am right: What Climate Change Means for Minnesota.

On the meaning of social and cultural roles in storytelling

Meanwhile, now that it is daytime, I’m looking into social vs cultural roles. Is there a difference? Honestly, what is the difference between society and culture?

Man you have to know a lot to write a story that is so infrequently taught…..

Notes from a Khan Academy video Culture and Society:

  • Culture informs society
  • Culture are the rules (human ideas) that form the organizing structure that is society
    • Weird metaphor: Apps / software on a phone are culture. The physical phone hardware is society.
  • “Society includes key parts called institutions, and examples include: family, education, politics. These are basic human needs, so we can think of society as the hardware.”
  • “Culture provides guidelines for living.”

Notes from a Khan Academy video Overview of culture:

  • “Society is a group of people and culture talks about the rules and instructions within a society that guides people and teaches them how to live.”
    • Why didn’t anyone just say this to start out with
  • “Culture refers to the ideas and things that are passed on from one generation to the next in a society.”
  • “Culture includes many different things like: knowledge, beliefs, values, language, customs”

So what I think they are saying here, for example, is that the collective we in America decided at some point that all children should be educated. That is an idea, a belief. That cultural belief is expressed in our society through the institution of public education. Right? I think.

(And yes, I know the whole public education was a scheme by factory owners to teach kids to grow up and be nice little factory workers instead of farmers. But no matter how jenky the original reason, it still became a cultural belief.)

Ok. Now, how does that apply to social vs cultural roles?

This page seems to imply that cultural roles are a subset of societal roles. (It thinks that gender, social differentiation, bio-sociological, and specific roles are each subsets of societal roles.) I guess one way to look at that is that everyone plays the social role of student when they are young, but a general American student in middle school role isn’t anything like the cultural roles of a Hebrew School student or a Chinese school student. Or even possibly football player in middle school.

Ok, wait. These roles are starting to sound like stereotypes, aren’t they? I see I’m not the only one to think that.

Members of social categories defined by attributes such as sex, race, and age occupy certain types of social roles much more than members of other social categories do. The qualities that define these roles become associated with the category as a whole, thus forming a stereotype. In a vicious cycle, this stereotype then hinders category members’ movement into roles with different demands because their stereotype portrays them as well matched to their existing roles but not to these new roles. This vicious cycle has important implications for stereotype change. Given the difficulties of producing enduring change by directly attacking stereotypes in the minds of individuals, a more effective strategy consists of policies and programs that change the distributions of category members in roles, thereby changing stereotypes at their source. If the vicious cycle is not interrupted by such social change, observations of category members’ typical social roles continually reinstate existing stereotypes.

Alice H. Eagly & Anne M. Koenig, The Vicious Cycle Linking Stereotypes and Social Roles

Well that’s a super interesting distraction. Not helpful for today, but possibly when working on the individual character level.

Anyway. This research has made me rescind my initial thought that roles flow from one another like a river. Overlapping Venn diagrams are a better representation, but (like always) I still want to create some overarching structure about how many roles a single person can be connected to. There is this image:

Manu Melwin Joy

Ok now that I understand roles better this diagram is actually super helpful. Let’s clear this up even more with various insights from around the Intarwebs:

  • Ideas about culture become cultural roles that the individual is expected to act out. A culture could be a sports team, their fans, a church, a college, a religion, an ethnicity, a “race,” a book club, “BreadTube,” a retirement community, a country club, etc.
  • Social roles change based on profession and relations. Individuals practicing different professions, such as teaching, nursing, plumbing, social media influencers, celebrities, have different roles to fulfill. I believe relations in this sense includes family roles.
  • Situational roles are knowing how to behave in specific instances, like how to be a customer in a fast food restaurant vs Ruth’s Chris, or what to do as the witness to a car crash. How to call a cab in New York, or knowing how much to tip and when.
  • Gender roles are roles we are expected to play based on our gender: mother, father, trans woman, etc.
  • Bio-sociological roles is kind of vague? It seems to be roles based on beliefs about how humans should interact with the natural world and natural systems. It’s too bad it’s so vague, because this seems like solarpunk bread and butter right here.
    • In a different but parallel vein, works by Tim Ingold and Gisli Palsson, for instance, have pointed to the necessity of a dissolution of the ‘conventional divisions between body, mind and culture’ (Ingold, 1999). A recent collection by Ingold and Palsson (2013), nicely summarizes this novel biosocial approach that challenges the reductionisms of sociobiology and cultural constructionism alike (dissolving the pole of nurture into nature and vice versa, respectively), and puts forward an integration of ‘the social and the biological … ontogeny and phylogeny, organism and context, being and becoming’ (Ingold and Palsson, 2013: 243). The biosocial: sociological themes and issues.
    • Oooooooooh, I see now. Bio-sociology is about challenging the idea of tabula rasa, that human interaction is the only thing that forms culture or identity. This idea incorporates biology into the picture of human behavior. Well, that’s much less exciting, and honestly will require way too much delving into theory to worry about overly much while I’m still getting a handle on the bigger picture.

So part of the problem here is that when you analyze the idea of “culture” it seems very static, like our modern assumptions about living in a small town in Eastern Europe in the fifth century. Everyone knew each other, there was little travel or other exchange of ideas, and everyone’s roles were set around them like cement, never changing. But in reality (then and now, most likely), culture is constantly updating itself, re-interpreting itself, being modified one way and then another and then back again by individuals and groups. Sub-cultures thrive and stagnate and die and are reborn. There might be agreement on the rules of a culture, but likely there isn’t. How dark does your skin have to be to be Black? Can you go out without makeup? Is aggression a male trait? Does our congregation welcome and perform gay marriage?

But in order to define roles for a story, they have to be pinned down. Even if they are in flux, the ways in which they are in flux need to be defined so that the change (or failure to change) will be clear. Also the role itself, if it is different from roles today, has to be clear and well-explained to the reader. So this is one of those ways in which story is very much a representation of reality, and not able to fully embody the messiness of life and people.

A bit of explanation

If you are wondering why I am worrying over roles in my worldbuilding, I am taking the idea from N. K. Jemisin’s style of worldbuilding, where thinking about social roles defines the power dynamics of your created society.

Also in looking up that link I found these that I am going to go listen to and see if it shakes anything else loose:

Narrative Worlds Episode 3 (Kate Elliott & N.K. Jemisin)

N.K. Jemisin’s master class in world building | The Ezra Klein Show

N. K. Jemisin Speaks at WIRED25

And this one possibly not on worldbuilding but sounds cool: UPSTREAMING: Neil Gaiman in Conversation with N. K. Jemisin

Tuesday, October 26 2021

Quote of the Day

In a human sacrifice to deity there might be at least a mistaken and terrible beauty; in the rites of moneychangers, where greed, laziness, and envy were assumed to move all men’s acts, even the terrible became banal.

Ursula K. LeGuin, The Dispossessed

I saw Dune

The new one. I’ve seen many Dunes, and I’ve read the first book.

Well, I’ve tried to read the first book. Six times. I can never get past Paul and Jessica being dumped in the desert. It’s a long and boring time until something interesting happens after that. Assuming anything does, because I’ve never hung in long enough to find out.

Dune really isn’t my cup of tea. But space operas are, so I keep trying to give it another chance. No matter how boring Paul is, and how uninteresting the writing is, and how weird everything else is.

[Spoilers ahead]

Here’s the short version of what I thought of 2021’s Dune:

  • Oh wow, plz don’t just steal cultural touchstones from a culture that is currently alive and well. You can’t just do that.
  • I never worked out before that Dune was a white savior plot, but there it is, in all its grotesque glory.
  • Why do all the scenes where important plot development things happen go by SO FAST?? While the other scenes are so slow and meditative? I don’t mind slow pacing or fast pacing, but I did feel a bit like I was getting whiplash flipping between the two.
  • I mean, but it is super pretty tho
  • Every time Leto dies, I am sad that the rest of Dune has to solider on without him, because he’s the only person in the book with a personality.
  • 10,000+ years in the future, we are still in love with blowing shit up as epically as possible
  • They skipped over a LOT of concepts in book Dune, but I’m not sad about it
  • The lack of showing mental powers was an interesting choice for a visual medium that I can get behind
  • God Paul is the worst
  • Shit, no more Duncan, whom I didn’t remember having a personality in the book but Jason Momoa was fantastique
  • Can we maybe possibly move past this 6 people have power and money in the entire known universe and dictate everyone’s lives hegemonic bullshit paradigm? We’re living it now, we’ve been living it for a couple thousand years, please don’t lets enshrine it as what is still happening 12847240 years from now.

Also, read this post about Dune, it’s great: Maybe Dune, a Story about a White Superman Created by a Eugenics Program, is Not the Film We Need Right Now

Burning ftw

This is apropos of nothing for me right now, but I don’t want to lose it for future research: The fire we need: Can managed fire heal more than just the forests?

Monday, October 25 2021

Quote of the Day

It is the nature of idea to be communicated: written, spoken, done. The idea is like grass. It craves light, likes crowds, thrives on crossbreeding, grows better for being stepped on.

Ursula K. LeGuin, The Dispossessed

The calmest Monday

The last couple weeks have been severely rough. Changing up my diet caused lots of fatigue and gut issues and psychological gut-punches. I got through and out the other side of that for my husband to have a health incident that still has me nervous and a little scared. Things seem to have settled down–I’ve gotten a decent amount of sleep for the first time in 4 days, and I am well-nourished now, and husband seems to have bounced back well.

I might not have gotten every single thing done that I wanted to today, but everyone’s feeling okay, things are getting done, and no one’s neglecting their immediate health. It’s the best Monday I’ve had in like a month.

Since things have been….exciting, I have a bunch of links that I’ve picked up along the way for random things I’ve looked up. Here’s the list:

I looked up social roles for wordbuilding at some point, and stumbled over this juicy looking link: My Role in a Social Change Ecosystem

I’d also like a better office chair. I have lumbar support issues, and I love sitting cross-legged. Hence:

I am loving this trend of no-combat MMOs: Spry Fox is still building a cozy non-violent MMO – and Epic is publishing it

Speaking of games, I watched Natalie Wynn stream Ambition, and I had a brief thought that I’d love to stream interactive novel-type games. But, copyright:

Not to be deterred, I came up with a plan where I stream about 30% of the game, then could offer a book club style Zoom call on the game over Patreon, assuming those who attend bought and played through the rest of the game themselves. But will I ever act on this plan? Not while there’s still worldbuilding to be done….

In more game news, I tried Gloomhaven with some friends for the first time. There are a lot of rules, and the rulebook is crap. This Gloomhaven Helper sounds very helpful for future games.

You know how hard it is to find a Gluten-Free Crisp recipe without almond or coconut flour? Hard enough that I don’t want to loose this recipe: Gluten-Free Apple Oatmeal Crisp.

Wednesday, October 20 2021

Quote of the Day

It’s your nature to be Tirin, and my nature to be Shevek, and our common nature to be Odonians, responsible to one another. And that responsibility is our freedom. To avoid it, would be to lose our freedom. Would you really like to live in a society where you had no responsibility and no freedom, no choice, only the false option of obedience to the law, or disobedience followed by punishment? Would you really want to go live in a prison?

Ursula K. LeGuin, The Dispossessed

Why we are all so tired

Today I went the store to buy coconut milk to make a smoothie.

I’ve already weeded out most brands of coconut milk because they have gums in them. But, there was a new brand that I wanted to examine because the package was much bigger than my normal brand. I thought it might be easier and cheaper than having to buy 3-4 little packages.

The new brand was very proud to announce it only has two simple ingredients: coconut and water! So wholesome. So fresh and natural and simple.

But….does there need to be water in coconut milk? How is coconut milk made? Is water a required part of the process? I thought it was made by basically wringing out coconut meat, no water necessary…but I wasn’t sure.

So I trundled off to get my usual brand. It had 1 ingredient: 100% coconut milk.

At this point I felt like I had no idea what coconut milk even is.

So I started comparing macronutrients to try and figure it out. The serving size on the usual brand was marked as 1/2 cup. The serving size on the new brand was 1/3 cup. Of course. The usual had 17g of fat, while the new one had 9 grams of fat per serving.

So maybe the new brand was a lite coconut milk, without saying “lite” on it? Nope, the new brand also had a lite version, which I didn’t even bother taking a look at. It seems the new brand’s regular coconut milk was actually watered down coconut milk? What even constitutes coconut milk then? Does there have to be a certain fat percentage?

…ok, see? See how hard buying one simple thing at the store is, and how much brain power I had to expend to make a single purchase. Everything in our capitalist life is like this. I ended up not even looking at the prices, which were vastly different and I’d have to do a bunch of math to compare which was the better value, especially counting for the fact that one was watered down. And since I was also watering down the usual brand when I use it because it is slightly too fatty, the best choice might have been the new brand anyhow….

Fitting everything in a day, shopping, working, civic engagement, keeping up with friends and family now happens on 2-4 social media platforms, texts, group chats on multiple messaging platforms, voice messages, voice calls, occasional birthday cards, and video calls. It’s all too impossibly overwhelming much.

So that I know what the hell it is that I am drinking, I’ve now looked up what coconut milk is, and hey, there are kinds:

When it comes to cooking, canned coconut milk is typically king. For many, it’s a pantry staple, as it’s shelf-stable and can be added to so many recipes. Canned coconut milk is a bit thicker than its boxed counterpart, imparting hints of coconut flavor and creaminess to a dish. For canned coconut milk, you may open the can to find that it has separated, with thick cream on the top, paired with a milky liquid, but adding it straight to a saucepan while cooking will bring the separation back together into its creamy form. 

Boxed coconut milk, on the other hand, which is often found on the shelves in a carton, is typically used for quicker recipes. It’s not as thick or creamy, but it makes a great milk alternative for cereal or smoothies, or even coffee if you just need a light addition. Its flavor isn’t as strong as canned coconut milk, since it doesn’t normally present the thick cream you see in a can, and often, it may have higher water content or other additives. A powdered form of coconut milk is also available and can be mixed with water, but it’s not as prevalent at the grocery store as these other two options. 

The Untold Truth of Coconut Milk,

At least my smoothie tasted great.

Solarpunk headlines

Both of these things seem pretty easy, and one is what we should already be doing anyhow

Want to stop climate change? Educate girls.

Solar panels on half the world’s roofs could meet its entire electricity demand – new research

Tuesday, October 19 2021

Quote of the Day

If to respect himself Kimoe had to consider half the human race as inferior to him, how then did women manage to respect themselves–did they consider men inferior?

Ursula K LeGuin, The Dispossessed

It’s been a week

That I think I’m starting to recover from. I pretty much dropped the writing ball while I tried to get my head around and work through issues surrounding what my nutritionist wants me to do and the cruft I’ve kept in my head over the years from a thousand different diets.

Working through lots of assumptions and things that I was taking as fact and generally re-arranging my perception on what healthy eating can look like was all-consuming, fatiguing, and painful, mentally and physically.

I’m feeling better now, and I think I’m eating better too.


I’ve mentioned a couple times now that I’m working with a nutritionist, and if you would like to know more about that, she is a Functional Nutritional Therapy Practitioner, and you can find out their methods here. I like her philosophy because I don’t believe in demonizing food groups, I need to get rid of more inflammation, and I need to rebuild my gut microbiome after 5 solid years of antibiotics, antimicrobials, and anti-virals to wipe out bad bacteria, parasites, and viruses that were fueling chronic fatigue and IBS.

Thinking through typing

While I was on break from story crafting, as it were, I was having a thought about my next step in worldbuilding. Now that I have the physical environment mostly down, it’s time to work on Element X, as N.K. Jemisin calls it, or the speculative element. I’ve thought about it a little over the last week, and I was feeling overwhelmed. But I’m coming back to it fully this week, and I’m realizing that my brain is trying to work on Element X and culture at the same time. And I’m getting frustrated when I can’t fit the pieces together right because they are both still in flux.

It’s actually really hard to take story crafting piece by piece, because breakthroughs often give me pieces of the whole puzzle, not just the parts I am looking at. Which is inherently fine, but frustrating when my conscious brain thinks it’s all that and tries to meticulously think out the whole story at once. That’s not how logical thinking works! Poor conscious brain, thinking it needs to show off that it’s as good as unconscious brain. I need to remember to focus on one thing at a time and just enjoy the scattershot breakthroughs as they happen.

(And of course, those breakthroughs only happen because conscious brain is so good at focusing and researching and thinking things through. Harnessing Apollo’s horses is a real PITA.)

Wednesday, October 13 2021

Quote of the Day

In a human sacrifice to deity there might be at least a mistaken and terrible beauty; in the rites of moneychangers, where greed, laziness, and envy were assumed to move all men’s acts, even the terrible became banal.

Ursula K. LeGuin, The Dispossessed

It’s going to be a day

Have I mentioned my shoulder has hurt for the last two months now? It’s a process my body seems to go through as it heals. I’ve gone through it before with my other shoulder. It’s fine now, no pain, complete range of motion. I’ll come out the other end with two shoulders in excellent working order. But keeping the faith in that knowledge is tough.

Today I have little energy, less motivation, and a shoulder that just won’t stop aching instead of its usual painful twinge when I use it. But I also have a tiny spark fo feeling that if I just keep trying to stick to my usual schedule, and don’t push but keep at it, I will get through today and tomorrow will be better.

So let’s try that.

Alma mater reading material

There are a number of interesting finds in this month’s issue of Stanford magazine:

More aquatic foods could be key to improving global health

  • This one links excellently to the worldbuilding I have done for my story. Also, according to both my nutritionist and my taste buds, this seems like a much better answer than going vegan. Also also, remember not to blame the poor cows.

Stanford researchers develop an intervention that cuts recidivism among children reentering school from the justice system

  • People acting like other people are people ftw

New Book Answers The Questions: Where Did Big Tech Go Wrong, And What Can We Do Next?

  • This doesn’t sound like anything new, but maybe the framework presented in the book is interesting. The class sure sounds interesting….

Tuesday, October 12 2021

Quote of the Day

Kimoe’s ideas never seemed to be able to go in a straight line; they had to walk around this and avoid that, and then they ended up smack against a wall. There were walls around all his thoughts, and he seemed utterly unaware of them, though he was perpetually hiding behind them.

Ursula K. LeGuin, The Dispossessed


Maybe I haven’t been able to concentrate today because it went down to the 30s last night and I stubbornly kept a window open and the heat off. And now it’s afternoon and the house is still 64 degrees. I think my brain is a little frozen.

In any case, the concentration doesn’t seem to be happening, so I’m going to just list off some interesting links that I have stumbled over but haven’t read. Maybe I can ponder some more about AIs for my story before writing the day off and baking to warm the place up faster.

EVOLVING THREAT New variants have changed the face of the pandemic. What will the virus do next?

  • I almost don’t want to know

How Our Need For Attention Online Drives Us Crazy

  • Why can’t I stop thinking about streaming solarpunk games on YouTube?

Black Children Were Jailed for a Crime That Doesn’t Exist. Almost Nothing Happened to the Adults in Charge.

  • Make this story not exist. No, seriously. This. Shouldn’t. HAPPEN.

The Farmers’ Market Is Moving Online

  • I have to find local versions of these services

How to think clearly: By learning to question and clarify your thoughts, you’ll improve your self-knowledge and become a better communicator

  • Clarity is important to writers, and I’ve had issues with being to obscure and opaque in my writing in the past, so this could help?

Good On You Directory

  • Thousands of clothing brands, rated for how sustainable and fair to their workers they are. Which I know is a very problematic thing from both sides, as Salem Tovar points out in her excellent video essay. Since I hate buying new clothes and keep even things I get from fast fashion places until they have holes in them, at least maybe this can lead me to better quality so I can keep the three items I actually like for longer.

There, I think this list properly sums up the wonder and the horror of living on the Internet. I wasn’t going for that, but neither were the people who started the Internet. Here we all are.