Wednesday, October 13 2021

Quote of the Day

In a human sacrifice to deity there might be at least a mistaken and terrible beauty; in the rites of moneychangers, where greed, laziness, and envy were assumed to move all men’s acts, even the terrible became banal.

Ursula K. LeGuin, The Dispossessed

It’s going to be a day

Have I mentioned my shoulder has hurt for the last two months now? It’s a process my body seems to go through as it heals. I’ve gone through it before with my other shoulder. It’s fine now, no pain, complete range of motion. I’ll come out the other end with two shoulders in excellent working order. But keeping the faith in that knowledge is tough.

Today I have little energy, less motivation, and a shoulder that just won’t stop aching instead of its usual painful twinge when I use it. But I also have a tiny spark fo feeling that if I just keep trying to stick to my usual schedule, and don’t push but keep at it, I will get through today and tomorrow will be better.

So let’s try that.

Alma mater reading material

There are a number of interesting finds in this month’s issue of Stanford magazine:

More aquatic foods could be key to improving global health

  • This one links excellently to the worldbuilding I have done for my story. Also, according to both my nutritionist and my taste buds, this seems like a much better answer than going vegan. Also also, remember not to blame the poor cows.

Stanford researchers develop an intervention that cuts recidivism among children reentering school from the justice system

  • People acting like other people are people ftw

New Book Answers The Questions: Where Did Big Tech Go Wrong, And What Can We Do Next?

  • This doesn’t sound like anything new, but maybe the framework presented in the book is interesting. The class sure sounds interesting….

Monday, September 27 2021

Quote of the Day

Behind me Loveland Castle was whole again, albeit a dumpy little building falling apart–one man’s dream of nobility crumbling from neglect. Noble ideas tended to do that when left alone.

Kim Harrison, Ever After

You disappoint me, technology

While I had my doubts about lab-grown meat (how could it possibly have the same micronutrients? also organs and bones are are super good for us), It still sounded like a reasonable alternative for part of the time, at least. Except, I guess it’s not really an alternative at all.

Lab-grown meat is supposed to be inevitable. The science tells a different story.

A trick that might work

So a few months ago, I bought heirloom masa harina to use as a substitute for cornmeal. It didn’t actually work all that great, because the masa harina is ground super fine. So I bought some posole to grind into cornmeal for the coarser texture. Which I haven’t tried yet–basically I want the nixtimalization but I also want tasty cornbread and jonnycakes.

Since my nutritionist has suggested that I do a gluten-free trial for 2 weeks, this has come back around again. And I think this time I have a new, better, strategy, based on recipes like this one:

Masa Harina Cornbread

I can buy regular heirloom cornmeal from the East Coast, then mix it in with the masa harina. This feels like it will go much better than the 1:1 swap I was attempting.

Of course, a lot of these recipes have some added wheat flour, but maybe if I find a 100% cornmeal recipe and switch out half for masa harina that will go better. But I’m eager to try and see what the results are.

Being inspired

I’ve found a couple of solarpunk references that I’m going to be exploring this week, just digging into the genre and getting a feel for its conventions. I found this article with lots of references:

Solarpunk Is Not About Pretty Aesthetics. It’s About the End of Capitalism

I also found this YouTube video, which will lead me to lots of interesting ideas:

Why This Gives Me Hope for the Future (ft. @Saint Andrewism)

Thanks to Our Changing Climate for crediting art and resources in his video, that makes my job much easier.

Solarpunk seems to be having a little bit of a moment, which is exciting!

Thursday, September 23 2021

Quote of the Day

There is something so special in the early leaves drifting from the trees–as if we are all to be allowed a chance to peel, to refresh, to start again.

Ruth Ahmed

Starting again

I’m re-reading Rachel and Trent and I can’t stop. They are so good, I get lost in them. I’ve spent hours over the last few days just sinking into the Hallows. 

Why don’t I sink into thoughts about my own book?

Do I want to write something more like the books that I love to live in? Sure I have this grand idea for a very dramatic, weighty novel, but how do I want to tell it? I could tell it more like Kim Harrison and less like Kim Stanley Robinson. 

This is why I need to write the short stories. Not just to get better–though I need that too–but to try on some writing styles, play in some genres. See if I want to build a world that persists over many stories. See what themes I like best. See if I want romance or adventure or moral subplots. 

Yesterday I watched a Neil Gaiman lecture where he said that he wanted to write a book when he was young that he knew he wasn’t ready for. It took 20 years for him to be ready, but eventually he was. And he worked on it, little by little, over the years, visiting graveyards and thinking about it. 

I think this novel I have in mind isn’t a project. It’s an adventure. It’s a magnum opus, a work of a lifetime, put together piece by piece. Maybe it’ll be done sooner than 20 years from now, but I don’t think time matters with this one. Experience matters. Exploring matters. Craft and growing matters. It’s so big. What I want the final work to accomplish, to encompass, to address is so vast. It can’t happen in the small space of just my head. It’s much bigger than that.

It’s time to explore.

The newest blue

I stumbled over the video on YouTube, and it ended up being super interesting.

Testing The First Blue Pigment In Over 200 years…

The development and trial of YinMn blue.

Suck it billionaires

NASA is so much smarter and better than you.

Solar Electric Propulsion Makes NASA’s Psyche Spacecraft Go

Loving this

Even if it is too little too late.

UArizona Launches Center to Advance Resilience of Native Nations, Address Environmental Challenges

The Indigenous Resilience Center is University of Arizona’s commitment to giving back to local tribes who have stewarded this land for millennia and who have endured and sacrificed so much. It is critical that Native nations drive the research questions based on their priorities and long-standing local knowledge, and that the approaches involve decolonized and indigenized approaches with Indigenous scientists actively leading these efforts. Furthermore, the resilience partnerships will aim to involve students who want to give back to their communities through community-based projects that are action oriented and solution driven.

It has occurred to me, while reading The Uninhabitable Earth, that it is very likely that the Narragansett’s tribal land will be underwater if things continue unabated…

Wednesday, June 30 2021

Quote of the Day

The word “uza” meant something that didn’t quite translate to Aelander. It meant solidarity. It meant unity. But something more than that—it meant that the people banded together in a community had a moral duty to each other, to serve one another.

C. L. Polk, Soulstar

Sticky keys

Perhaps trying to find a whole new working concept of keyboard isn’t the way to approach my typing woes. My main problem right now is that I lock my head in place while working at the computer so I can see both the screen and my keyboard at once. It’s very much not a natural position, and after a few hours my neck is v v unhappy. Let’s just tackle that.

I found a thread that had an interesting idea:

What is the best way to create tactile bumps on your keyboard?

When the stickers are different shapes, your fingers may be able to tell the difference…

Do any of them feel like a Tilde or an Up Arrow?

Here is how they do it in Korea:


My problem seems to be that I can’t keep from trying to stare at the keyboard, even though I’ve tried a million times over the last 36 years to stop looking and touch type correctly. I am a three-finger typist usually, which means my hands are all over the keyboard. I absolutely must have memorized the key locations by now…I can type without looking for short spurts. But because I can’t do the home row thing, inevitably I need to reset my hand positions. Maybe putting tactile feedback on the keys will keep me always knowing where my hands are and I don’t have to look down to reset. I tend to move my head around more when I’m not focused on the keyboard so much, and it helps with the neck aching dramatically.

So I looked at stickers and at membranes that overlay the whole keyboard. I was convinced that the overlay wasn’t the way to go. But these stickers from Keybodo seem promising….

The End of the World

I thought of this quote the other day while brainstorming on my novel, but I couldn’t remember it exactly. Here it is so I can find it again:

Writers like Bastani or Morton have interesting things to say about climate change. But what I notice reading Indigenous authors is that a lot of it has been said already. At a time when many people are wondering “What are we gonna do if our homes flood and we have to move?” or “What sort of communities are we gonna be living in when ecological disaster strikes?”, a lot of Indigenous people are already there!

Lower Brule Sioux writer and professor Nick Estes has said that a lot of Indigenous folks are already living in a post-apocalyptic world, because climate change is only possible because of colonialism.

Abigail Thorn, “Climate Grief“, Philosophy Tube YouTube channel

She’s got a lot of references listed in the YouTube description, should I want to read more about it. This quote hit me hard when I first watched the video a few years ago. Even if climate change wasn’t a thing that was happening, Native Tribes would still be living in a post-apocalyptic world due to colonialism. Their way of life changed so drastically that even carrying on traditions, in my opinion, doesn’t change the fact that one world ended and another came into being.


Speaking of colonialism….OMG why is sourcing Native American food so freakin hard?! Most of the hazelnuts we buy today are either imported, because most commercial hazelnuts are grown Elsewhere, or are grown in Oregon, from English hazelnut trees or trees that are a hybrid of English and American hazelnuts. Why? 6 million links later, I finally found the answer: capitalism.

But the company has to buy over 90 percent of its hazelnuts from Europe, because, ever since colonial times, stateside attempts to grow enough hazelnuts to rival European production have failed miserably.

North America has its own hazelnut variety – Corylus Americana. It tastes as good as its European cousin, but is just one-quarter the size, with a thick shell that stays tightly in its husk when mature, compared to European nuts that fall on the ground, says Tom Molnar, associate professor in the Department of Plant biology and Pathology at Rutgers University. Taken together, its characteristics mean that not only do American hazelnut trees produce less than their European relatives, the meat is harder to harvest.

Marsha Johnston, “The Great American Hazelnut Hunt“, Modern Farmer





No one questions that we’ve spent centuries trying to get English hazelnut trees to grow here when there are already Native American hazelnut trees that grow just great? But the American variety “can’t” be grown commercially because the English version has a higher yield and are easier to process. Someone at some point could just decide to not make quite as money as it would be theoretically possible to make growing English varieties and grow American hazelnuts anyway. Instead we’ve spent many hundreds of years putting in a ton of man-hours trying to get the English trees to grow, trying to keep them from succumbing to a disease that American hazelnuts aren’t susceptible to, trying to get viable hybrids, studying their genetics to figure out which gene is the resistant gene, and killing thousands of trees doing all this experimentation.

Going through this process makes me realize how much we hate ourselves. How much we want to take everything that is native or inherent to this land that is our nation and erase it or transform it into some Frankensteined creation so that an individual can put their name on it and claim they invented it. It’s completely infuriating. Pretending that America didn’t exist until some Europeans showed up and spread their European shit all over it and re-named it just…..augh! So. Sick. Of. It. We could have done better. Can’t we at least try to do better now?

First Porridge

On the less angsty side of this Eat Like Your Ancestors project, I tried to make Cranberry Nasamp (from a Wampanoag recipe, but since they lived on the other side of the Narragansett Bay from the Narragansetts, I think it’s close enough. I made it using masa harina I bought from Masienda. And, um. I didn’t exactly feel excited to be cooking the things of my ancestors.

That would most likely be because I’ve never cooked porridge or grits before. Seriously. I had no idea how it was supposed to look or taste. Or how long to cook it for. Also the masa harina is definitely too fine for this, because it kept trying to make itself into dough instead of porridge. This is going to be a learning curve. Maybe I should buy some heirloom hominy and grind that up in my food processor for a coarser meal instead?

I mean, it tasted ok and my body seemed pleased about it, so yay? Lots more experimentation before I’m rhapsodizing about it, apparently.

OMG, you thought I was done talking about Inside for a minute, didn’t you

Nope! Not done. Now that I’ve seen some reaction videos, I’ve been getting bored by them because they aren’t really engaging with the piece (yes, I know, reaction videos are Not That Deep), but deep is my thing, so this morning I started looking for some video essays.

YouTube surfed up this essay “Bo Burnham: Inside is the best comedy special, whatever that means” by Alec Kubas-Meyer on his channel The Week I Review. It’s an hour long ramble. Not a bad ramble overall, but at about 25 minutes in, I realized I was really just waiting to see if Alec was going to engage with “How the World Works,” and yay! He did. So let’s look at that bit called “I agree with Socko (an actual critique)”.

First note: A ha, a lot of the commentary around this song seems to be happening on TikTok, which would be why I haven’t seen much.

Ok. I’ve typed out some bits of the video to examine.

The TikTok showed only latter with the caption: “where’s the lie.” And, actually, I want to make a small but important critique here because when I was watching the special I was immediately reminded of a broader discourse thing that I don’t know the name of and honestly I’m not politically pure enough to to make, but oh well.

So Socko initially presents as an incredibly reasonable and factually accurate puppet with a statement that the version of history we’ve been taught is just false and that the world is built with blood and genocide and exploitation. Great. But then he moves into conspiracy. The FBI killed MLK. And lefty talking points that a lot of people knee-jerk reject, like private property’s inherently theft.

I believe that Bo Burnham thinks that the history that we are taught in schools is bad. I don’t believe that he believes that every single politician and cop is working to protect the interests of the pedophilic corporate elite. But he puts those two things in the same verse of a song. And depending on the beliefs that you bring into the show, you will hear it in radically different ways…..

That said, this doesn’t really matter, because it isn’t really the point of the bit. What at first seems to be a critique of oppression quickly reveals itself to be a demonstration of it. The literal puppeteer asks what to do, and the puppet becomes frustrated at being forced to “teach” basic humanity to a rich white guy. But as things become more pointed, the puppeteer becomes angry. And literally figuratively pummels them into submission, threatening them with the void that they exist in any time he doesn’t see fit to offer them a platform. And when the puppet has calmed down and accepted their place, well, the puppeteer forces them off anyway because of course he does.

And this all feeds into a pretty constant theme in Burnham’s work throughout his career about his place in the world, and now his place in a moment with increasing unrest and public division epitomized by one of the show’s first lines: what can a white guy do while still getting paid and being the center of attention.

I’m not in the this for the money, but we can’t pretend like my self-centered YouTube channel on which I pretend to review things so that I can talk about myself is not a function of my self-centeredness. And I am super aware of it and can pretend that makes it okay but as Burnham says: self-awareness does not absolve anybody of anything.

And yet.

Why shut up when I can just not do that. Us straight white men have collectively had the floor for hundreds of years but what about me?? And my guess is that on some level you’re bothered by what I just said while also being conflicted because like you’re a lot of fucking minutes into this, so you have clearly accepted the idea that this particular white guy must have something worth saying at least some of the time. Sucks, right?

I’m going to do this by listing my reactions in order:

  1. OMG, don’t hit Google and collect ten thousand articles and papers and other proofs that everything that Socko says is true and post them all triumphantly. DO NOT DO THAT. Not the posting, not the looking, leave it. LEAVE IT.
  2. Oh that’s so interesting. Alec is guessing what he thinks the artist does or doesn’t believe. Why would he do that, and what is he basing that guess on? The inside of other people’s brains is weird and fascinating. I’m guessing Alec is guessing off of what sounds reasonable to him that other people might believe.
  3. (Of course, he’s wrong, Bo obviously knows the truth about capitalism because Bo is a super smart cookie.)
  4. Well, ok, I can see dividing the bit, the first half being the tell bit, the second half being the show bit. But take them together and you get the hauntingly genius showing of the white people power move that presents for example like this: POC will protest about a thing and The (white) Discourse (TM) says: Oh yes, that’s a terrible thing we somehow never noticed. But do you have to protest about it like that? Sitting through the (racist) anthem is so disrespectful. We’re going to talk about the unAmerican-ness of that exact action, and the ungratefulness of that POC, and how we used to like and support POC but now we just can’t, and we’re going to never, never, never ever talk about the thing. But oh the riots! If only they wouldn’t riot and just protest peacefully while dealing with the terror of people like them randomly getting killed over a broken taillight or wearing a hoodie or doing everything they are told to do. I can’t condone the riots. Just look at how awful those 93% peaceful riots were.
  5. Deep breath.
  6. “…and that the world is built with blood and genocide and exploitation. Great.” Oof. Phrasing.
  7. Super aware is good. Yes, no that doesn’t make anything inherently okay, but then you engage with these ideas and…..
  8. WOW
  9. WOW
  10. ….
  11. I think Socko can take this one: Why do you rich fucking white people insist on seeing every socio-political conflict through the myopic lens of your own self-actualization? This isn’t about you!

And I think that’s really the thing, the thing just stops all conversation or engagement before it starts. People make it about them as an individual and not them as a tiny piece of a societal story that we are all caught up in. It’s not just the racism that’s the problem in the society story, it’s the individualism, too! And strong attachment to the one feeds the life of the other. That’s what needs getting over.

Tuesday, June 29 2021

Quote of the Day

“I like being by myself,” Kaladin said.

“Great. Sounds awful. Today, you’re coming with me. No more excuses. I let you blow me away last week and the week before.”

“Maybe,” Kaladin snapped, “I just don’t want to be around you, Adolin.”

The high prince hesitated, then leaned forward, narrowing his eyes and putting his face up close to Kaladin’s…

“Tell me honestly,” Adolin said. “With an oath, Kaladin. Tell me that you should be left alone tonight. Swear it to me.”

Adolin held his gaze. Kaladin tried to form the words, and felt of the ten fools when he couldn’t get them out.

He definitely shouldn’t be alone right now.

“Storm you,” Kaladin said.

“Ha,” Adolin said, tugging him by the arm. “Come on, Brightlord Master Highmarshal Stormface. Change your coat to one that doesn’t smell like smoke, then come with me. You don’t have to smile. You don’t have to talk. But if you’re going to be miserable, you might as well do it with friends.”

Brandon Sanderson, Rhythm of War

There are a number of characters in this series that have serious mental illnesses, and not only are the portrayals well and carefully researched and done, the examples of how to help–and not help–people struggling are fantastic. Scripts I really don’t want to forget, for when I might need them.

Long live the Moletariate!

While I was brainstorming for the novel yesterday, I thought about house design (no, really). Our massive heatwave has broken somewhat, and I’m back at home. But I have some friends who managed to brave the heat with one little portable AC unit. They way they did it was to move downstairs and block off the upstairs stairway with a heavy drape. The downstairs of the house is a half-underground basement. With some fan strategery, they kept it under 80 degrees.

This made me think about why don’t we build more underground, since the temperatures are so much more stable and the insulating earth works about a million times better than that nasty pink fiberglass stuff? Might that be a good solution for the (climate change hellscape that is our inevitable) future?

Which THEN made me think about one question on a questionnaire the city I live in sent out a couple months ago, polling residents for their preferences about local development. It asked if We Residents would mind the look of buildings that are raised up to have parking at the ground level instead of underground. The problem, apparently, is that all the underground digging is f*ing with the natural water table, and could cause some serious environmental problems down the road.

So good on my city for not wanting to develop us into ecological disaster. But where does that leave me with my build underground theory? Imma do a fast Google search to get some articles to read later:


In the South Australian town of Coober Pedy, it’s extremely hot above the ground. So building underground keeps things nice and cool. In fact, many of their underground buildings started off as opal mines, so the hard engineering was already done.


Will we ever… live in underground homes?

Why We Don’t Like Our Underground House (has positives too)

Efficient Earth-Sheltered Homes

7 Amazing Facts About Underground Houses That Will Blow Your Mind (great pics and examples)

Underground Construction

Humans could survive underground, but it would take a lot more than shovels

Earthscrapers: we may be living underground a few decades from now and not even miss the sun (this whole site is really interesting)

I can’t touch type

And I really wish someone would create a keyboard that helps me and my neck and my hands and wrists with that. Some options, ranging from eh to interesting idea to ludicrous:

OrbiTouch Keyless Keyboard

TAP Wearable Keyboard and Mouse

Kinesis Advantage 2

Safetype Ergonomic Keyboard


Azeron Keypad

Ooooookay….need to research more, I think.

Christmas in June

An Honest 2020 Christmas

In case we forgot why our anxiety level was so high last year. Very clever, and an emphasis on appreciating small things / wins that at once annoys me and also is a good reminder. Also her voice is amazing.

A Mobius strip of anxiety!

Forward head posture and anxiety

While contemplating the thought that anxiety makes you do this unhealthy head posture thing that in and of itself increases yet more anxiety is…..anxiety-inducing, the info about the mind-body connection is really important. And I should try to do the exercise she recommends to correct the posture. Because I get my head stuck in the position basically whenI am doing anything other than taking a walk.

I need to watch a lot more of her content. I’ve bought her book and classes and haven’t done anything with them yet.

Consumer technology is hard

My five-year-old iPad Pro is acting jenky, so it is time for a replacement. I thought–I really really thought–that I wanted an iPad to replace it, but after working for a day on it in my hotel room, making a blog entry on it was the worst experience ever. I need windows and an real OS for ease of what I am doing now–namely researching, idea generation and gathering, and reflecting instead of just opening up a document and slinging words on the page in the hopes that everything will come out ok. New process, new workflow, new laptop soon I hope!

But……MacBook Air or Pro? Why are choices never clear cut?

DON’T DO IT!!!! M1 MacBook Pro Vs the MacBook Air

MacBook Air vs. MacBook Pro: Which Mac Should You Buy in 2021?

The problem always seems to be: which product fails least spectacularly to meet my use case? Sigh.